Obsessed
Monday, May 24, 2010
3:37 AM

Got the rest of my results back, and everyone's going like "wow, that's great" and I feel like telling them "yea, its great only if everyone failed".
Its too horrible to say in comparison.
yippee.
My worst fear since the beginning of the year is, sadly, coming true.
Just great.
Chem by far the best, weird huh?
Biology was disappointing.
Physics was frustrating.
SS was atrocious.
English was the ultimate let down.

But considering a lot of people failed, I guess I shouldn't be complaining.
Now, I just have to shout my prayers to the sky for a miracle like Top 6 to happen.
Unrealistic, unbelievable and unthinkable.

I realised that I usually miss the next grade for a lot of subjects by 1 or 2 marks.
2 of the B3s can become A2s by 1+ mark.
So is one of the C5s.

Hoping my CA1 will pull it up as best as it can.
byebye.

&the beauty.

Friday, May 21, 2010
7:39 PM

Results came back, emath, amath, geog, chinese and chem.
Chem the best, chinese the worst. The rest are in btw.
Somehow, still not happy with the results, cos I knew i could do better.
A LOT better.
I have this inner fear that te would eventually get a higher position than me. Like seriously.
Parents say its good enough, but not to me anyway ):
oh well.
Just have to hope that the rest will be good!
Good luck to everyone! :D

&the beauty.

Thursday, May 20, 2010
4:07 AM

How can you completely love and hate something or someone at the same time? Well, its possible.
Today was prob one of the worst school days in every school day.
Started off with the sexuality talk, which started the whole day off really bad.
Following that was PE, which, after the NAPFA, we were split into 2 groups with 2 leaders.
2 completely diff. emotions followed, anger and relief.
Xinni and ys were whispering to me :"we're not in the cool group."
WHO CARES ANYWAY, I felt like screaming!?
But I did.

After becoming a prefect, somehow I became a lot less popular.
Does it matter anyway? Its obvious that would happen, I knew it right from the start.
Everyone finds prefects annoying, and this in itself is annoying that people find prefects annoying.

Whoa don't get me wrong, I didn't say we were in the uncool group!
A lot of people in my group were cool in itself, esp. Victoria :D
But I had fun.
This heavy, depressed weight in my gut is still present though.
Why do I care so much? Why does it matter to me anyway? Its weird.

Ever since I entered SMSS I could spot the difference btw these 2 schools.
The academic standard in SMSS is higher, but STC beats SMSS in friendship and togetherness hands down.
The bonds and friends I establised there can never be replaced nor broken, and really, its NEVER.
I could feel the closeness of my friends there, nearly everyone was nice to each other, that's why its an IJ school isin't it? (:
I miss it.
The day progressively worsened during class discussion, when 3/6 couldn't agree on the type of poster they wanted.
The *something* was dominating; fiercely, wanting their rights.
Even kris got really angry, saying that "it wasn't funny at all", no matter how many times we laughed.
I agreed.
It was the least funniest thing I have ever heard in my life.
Somehow, the leftovers seemed to be one side, and the really "bonded" side on the other.
The day improved a little when Jen made me laugh with her stupid jokes, and Xinni as well.
They are the greatest friends (:

2/5 or 3/6? I have no idea.
2/5 was split into many BIG cliques, but this time? Its just 2 big cliques.
What's the diff.? The situation is equally bad.
Somehow, when we hear the word "bonding", everyone seems to cower down and hide, as though afraid to associate themselves with the whole class.
Seriously, why is this so? Why can't we just be a big family? Why can't people be willing to sacrifice their friends and make new ones? Comfort? Security? Familiarity? Or all of the above?
We can't get along. ):
Another piece of bad news - only 4 peeps in our class passed chinese, the rest failed.
and I have a feeling I'm one of them.
Tomorrow's going to be a scary day. Frightening, nerve-wrecking and downright worrying.
Good luck to everyone.
Not just in our results, but in our improvements of bonding.

byebye.

&the beauty.

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